"Eh'What is this red chain?" Xu Jiansheng curiously touched the red chain, and the surge of memories invaded his brain.Â
Xu Jiansheng closed his eyes as he saw passing memories flashes in his head, but none of them were clear enough for him to see. As if all the memories had been covered in a dark cloud, hiding everything inside.
"Argh!" Xu Jiansheng clutched his head because of the sudden headache he got.Â
"Young Master, are you alright?!" Yunyu hurriedly propped Xu Jiansheng, who suddenly lost his strength. Since Xu Jiansheng was only eight years old, Yunyu propped him in one arm.Â
"Young Master, wake up!" Bai Yunyu asked worriedly. He looked round to find a servant to help him, but this private courtyard was Madam Xu's place. And it seemed that she didn't allow a random servant to attend her.
"Young Master, I will find someone'"Â
"Yunyu'"
Bai Yunyu was shocked when Xu Jiansheng suddenly grabbed his sleeve with his small hands. He opened his eyes and threw a sharp gaze at Yunyu. That sharp gaze was full of contempt and disappointment, but it also full of yearning.Â
A yearn of a lover who was disappointed by his spouse.Â
Even with a small body, Yunyu was petrified by Xu Jiansheng's gaze. It was as if the one who stared at him right now was the real, adult Jiansheng.Â
He felt guilty, but there was nothing he could do at this point.Â
"Yunyu'¦ why?" Xu Jiansheng asked desperately. He was clenching Yunyu's sleeve like clenching at his last hope.Â
"I help you in so many worlds. I keep you in my heart, not wanting to hurt you. I want you to be happy'¦ but why did you do this to me?"
"Do I need to keep hurting myself, sacrificing myself, so you can be happy with someone else?" Xu Jiansheng asked.Â
Xu Jiansheng gritted his teeth. He knew that he didn't have enough time. Bai Yunyu, his beloved Yunyu, did something to tamper with his memory. Now everything was blurred except for this moment. He wasn't even sure if he could maintain any memory after they jumped to the next world.Â
Xu Jiansheng's heart was hurting so much because of his beloved, "Why do you need to erase me from your life? Am I a nuisance to you?"
Xu Jiansheng clenched harder, his small hands became white because he used all his strength, "After all, I did for you. Am I a nuisance to you? Is my love something that you want to get rid of?"
Xu Jiansheng looked so hurtful that Yunyu couldn't help but dodge Jiansheng's eyes.Â
"Yunyu, answer me!"
Yunyu bit his lips. He didn't like to be the one that was wrong, so he tried to defend himself, "I'¦ I don't want to hurt your heart'¦"
"You just did. You hurt me a lot, Yunyu," Xu Jiansheng said. "Now I understand how my master felt about you. You're a poisonous bastard who doesn't know how to repay your debt!"
"X'Xu Jiansheng, I'¦"
"Yunyu, you know what's the funniest thing here?" Xu Jiansheng gritted his teeth. His eyes were already red, "I still love you. Even after this much pain, I still fucking love you!"
Yunyu's heart was crushed when Xu Jiansheng said that. In fact, he wished that Xu Jiansheng wouldn't remember anything. He knew that Jiansheng bore a lot of pain because of love, as Aaron Xu and as Xu Jiansheng. He even suspected that Xu Jiansheng also existed as other people in Yunyu's transmigration worlds.Â
But he wasn't the target. He wasn't the one that Yunyu should prioritize.Â
After realizing that nothing would come out of Yunyu's mouth, Xu Jiansheng could only grit his teeth to bear the pain. He could feel that his body was wearing again, and the bloody chain that connected their hearts would disappear soon. He didn't even know if he could maintain this bloody chain after Yunyu completed this world.
"I am a fool who loves you, Yunyu. And I will continue doing it, even if I don't remember anything'¦"Â
Xu Jiansheng finally used his last strength, and he closed his eyes again.Â
Both Pupa and Yunyu were petrified with the sudden outburst from Xu Jiansheng before he fell unconscious again.
Madam Xu returned with a bag of coins for Yunyu, "Bai Yunyu, here is for the payment'Oh Buddha! What happened to my son!?"
Madam Xu hurried to prop her eighth year old son. She checked his body and was relieved that Jiansheng was still breathing. She carefully put Jiansheng to the bed inside her room and returned to Yunyu.
"I'I'm sorry, Madam. I really don't know what happened with Young Master'¦"
Madam Xu smiled weakly and replied, "It's okay. Jiansheng has a strange illness. He often fell unconscious in the middle of the day since he was a child. He keeps mumbling his beloved as if he was mumbling something that had happened in the past."
"I summoned a Physician, and he said that Jiansheng is in good health. Then I summoned a healer, and the healer said that Xu Jiansheng has a heart illness. It is because he had lost someone so important for him in the past life."
[Pupa, who is Xu Jiansheng, really?]
[Pupa: I don't know.]
[How could he remember everything'¦]
[Pupa: I don't think so. I mean, don't you see that clear and innocent eyes of a child in him before he touched the red chain? It is most likely that he only remembers a very small part of his identity. I doubt that he will remember you in the next world.]
[Pupa: Though, it seems that red chain between your heart with his will stay forever through the worlds, since it's spiritual connection.]
'¦
Xu Jiansheng's desperation was so clear in his eyes that Yunyu still remembered it clearly. He was angry at Yunyu because Yunyu basically forbade him to fall in love.
It was a cold betrayal for Jiansheng, and Yunyu realized how hurt it was for Jiansheng.
"I'It's okay, Madam Xu. I will leave now if you excuse me," Yunyu said. He excused himself with the payment and leave Duke Xu's mansion. He looked back at the grandeur mansion and sighed before walked away.
Pupa floated around Yunyu, curious about Yunyu's reaction after knowing that Jiansheng didn't forget about him.Â
"Pupa, am I really the bad guy here? Did I do such injustice to Xu Jiansheng?"Â
"Not exactly. I know that you don't want Jiansheng to remember about you because it will only make things a lot more complicated. But that being said, I also understand why he felt so betrayed because of what you did."
"Yunyu, you rob his right to love. You know that he only loves you," Pupa said decisively. It made Yunyu felt even more guilty than before, though he understood what Pupa said was the truth.
He turned his head again to look at the mansion and said,
"Xu Jiansheng, Aaron Xu, or whatever your name is. I hope there will be a time where you completely forget me. I don't want to bring pain in your heart."
"But if you insist with your love. Then I will sacrifice a world for you. That's my promise."Â
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