I Became a God in a Horror Game

Bai Yi met Spades’ inquiring eyes. He opened his mouth and wanted to answer Spades’ question, but at that moment, he couldn’t utter a single word.

The definitions of friends, relatives, and lovers are actually very simple, but for some reason, Bai Yi felt that… the answer to these question is very cruel to Spades.

Although Spades himself didn’t care.

Seeing that Bai Yi didn’t answer him, Spades turned his gaze back and said, “Friends, family, and lovers are just like reality. You can’t really tell what’s important about them.”

“Then there’s no need to tell me the answer.” Spades used his knee to push the whip hanging on his leg, lowering his eyes, “It doesn’t matter.”

Bai Yi was silent for a long time before he smiled awkwardly and hummed, “…Indeed, to Spades, none of this should be important.”

“Because these things are just like [reality], they are just the gentle places where weak people like us escape.”

Bai Yi muttered absentmindedly.

From then on, Spades never asked anyone any questions related to reality, and just played games alone like before.

Spades doesn’t like living in the central hall. He usually sleeps in a game. If he finds a game that he really likes, he will often go to this game to sleep or rest.

For example, for a long time before, Spades slept in “Ice Age”.

Bai Yi once said in shock, “You actually like to sleep there. Don’t you feel cold in such a low temperature?”

Spades calmly said that he would not feel cold.

Bai Yi asked in shock, why?! Isn’t it better to choose a warmer place to sleep?!

Spades glanced at him and said, “My body temperature is very cold. I can’t warm up no matter where I sleep, so it’s all the same.”

So Bai Yi stopped talking again and stared blankly at Spades as he left with the whip and went to sleep in “Ice Age”.

In fact, Bai Yi knew in his heart that all the sympathy-like emotions he had towards Spades were unnecessary for the other party.

Spades doesn’t care about the opinions of ordinary human players like them. They are not a species that survives in the same environment, and their standards for judging the world and the future are completely different.

If it must be said then Spades is more like a monster that accidentally escaped from the game and accidentally entered the ranks of players.

It is foolish to look at Spades from a human perspective.

But sometimes… when Bai Yi occasionally discovered something very subtle and close to human in Spades, he would really feel sad.

——It’s a pity that Spades is a guy who sometimes acts like a human being. Why can’t he enter reality?

But Bai Yi knew in his heart that this sadness was unnecessary.

Because not allowing Spades to enter reality is the consensus of all players in reality.

Bai Yi couldn’t understand before why the Reverse God strictly prohibited everyone from coding the spades, but later he understood.

Once, when Bai Yi was in the lounge, the door was half-closed. At the moment when he was about to push it open, he heard the voice of Spades coming from inside.

“Reverse God, are you the one who forbids everyone to give me the code of reality?” Spades asked calmly.

Bai Yi’s hand, which was about to open the door, stopped there.

After a while, the Reverse God replied: “Well, I forbade it. Why? Do you want to enter reality?”

“No.” Spades paused, “But why can’t I go?”

The Reverse God smiled. Bai Yi could see through the crack in the door that the Reverse God was leaning on the sofa, his head tilted back and looking at the ceiling, as if he was in deep thought: “Spades, it’s not that you can’t go to reality. You can go.”

“But not now.”

Spades asked, “Why?”

The Reverse God said: “Because when [reality] has no meaning to you, [reality] is just a copy of your game, and you will look at [reality] with the eyes of looking at a game.”

“If one day, [reality] loses its meaning as a game to you, or [reality] makes you unhappy, you will choose to destroy [reality] without hesitation. You have the ability to do so.”

“But the most fundamental reason is that [reality] is not important to you.”

“Then you will become a monster in this copy of [reality].” The Reverse God raised his head and looked at Spades levelly, “You will destroy the [reality] that others are trying their best to protect.”

Spades raised his eyes and said, “Isn’t [Reality] a copy of a game?”

The Reverse God stroked his chin and thought for a while: “You can say it is.”

Spades continued to ask: “Then destroying the game copy is not something that [players] often do?”

“The players I met hated all copies of the game. They were terrified of them and often collapsed and screamed about destroying them completely.”

“Why do these players want to protect this copy of [Reality]?”

Spades looked at the Reverse God: “Is it because these players like the [Reality] dungeon?”

“No.” the Reverse God thought for a moment, and then he smiled as if he found it very interesting, and looked at Spades, “On the contrary, many of the players who come to this system hate [reality].”

“There must be something in reality that makes them very unhappy and greatly stimulates their desires, so they will enter the game. For many players, the horror of reality may not be less than the horror of any game here.”

Spades stared at the Reverse God: “Then why do they want to protect reality? Shouldn’t they do everything they can to destroy it?”

The Reverse God smiled and said, “It’s hard to understand, right?”

Spades paused and hummed.

“What they want to protect is not the copy of [reality] itself.” The Reverse God looked at Spades, “but some specific people in this copy.”

“So no matter how hideous, terrifying and gloomy this copy of [reality] is, and how it forces them to suffer and tortures them to survive, they will protect [reality] for these people.”

“Spades, humans, or the players you se are such creatures.”

“People instinctively seek their own existence, feelings and values ​​in other people, and the desire generated by this pursuit is often more tenacious than the desire generated from themselves.”

“If people only rely on making profits for themselves, they will become the subjects of desires and spiritual needs. Games will soon drive such people crazy. This is normal because people are the product of groups. It is difficult for them to completely rely on themselves to meet their emotional and spiritual needs. They must rely on others.”

“You must have seen a lot of players who enter the game just for themselves, and then die in the game very quickly.”

“So most of the high-level players in this game are not playing for themselves, but because of someone or some very important people in [reality].”

The Reverse God held his chin and looked at Spades with a smile: “But for Spades now, these things are still difficult to understand, so just listen to them.”

“If Spades wants to enter reality, then he must make reality have irreplaceable meaning to you.” The Reverse God patted Spades’ shoulder.

“When there is someone in reality who is very important to you, and you are willing to not destroy reality for him or her no matter how much reality tortures you, then you can enter reality.”

Spades was silent for a long time. When the Reverse God stood up and prepared to leave, Spades suddenly spoke again: “Those very important people, are they friends, relatives, lovers?”

Bai Yi, who was standing outside the door, and the Reverse God, who was inside the door, were both startled at the same time.

The Reverse God sat back down with amusement: “Did Bai Yi tell you that?”

Spades hummed and lowered his head: “But he didn’t tell me what these are.”

“In a popular sense, relatives are people who are related to you by blood, friends are people who have a good relationship with you and are willing to help you and accompany you at all times, and lovers are -“

When talking about [lover], the Reverse God clenched his fist and coughed. His face turned red and he said distressingly: “Lover… Although I already have a wife, it is difficult for me to explain this to you clearly.”

Spades squinted at the Reverse God: “Love, is it complicated?”

“It’s not complicated.” The Reverse God scratched the back of his head and said embarrassedly, “I fell in love with my wife at first sight.”

“But it’s not complicated, it’s also complicated.” The Reverse God sighed helplessly, “I have been my wife’s boyfriend so many times. She was very good to every boyfriend, and every boyfriend was also a good person. But I don’t know why, maybe it’s because of bad luck, we can never make it to the end.”

“I was so anxious before the wedding that I didn’t sleep well for several days.” The Reverse God clasped his hands together and prayed devoutly, “Thank God for allowing her and I to marry smoothly.”

Bai Yi, who was outside the door, suddenly heard such a big gossip and took a breath of cold air – Wow, a highly intelligent person like The Reverse God would also worry about his marriage problems.

Bai Yi thought that only idiots like himself would worry.

“You have an intelligence score of 96, and you can also predict the future.” Spades looked at the Reverse God, “If you really want to know about the future of your marriage with her, there is always a way.”

The Reverse God slowly sat up straight, clasped his hands on his knees, lowered his head and remained silent for a long time before speaking: “…I can’t predict her.”

Spades looked at the Reverse God: “Your skills have no limit, why not?”

“Because I’m afraid.” The Reverse God slowly raised his head and looked at Spades. “I can predict the future of my friends and relatives, but I can’t predict it for her.”

Spades stared at the Reverse God: “What are you afraid of?”

The Reverse God paused and said, “Among all the relationships that people need according to common sense, love relationships are the most special. You can have some expectations about your relationships with friends, and most of the relationships with family members are innate. Only love relationships are difficult to determine.”

“Before I met her, no matter how smart I was, it would have been difficult for me to predict what kind of love relationship I would have and how it would progress.”

“Romances are full of unknowns.”

“You don’t know who you will fall in love with, nor do you know whether that person will love you or how long they will love you.” The Reverse God half closed his eyes, “I don’t know how far we can go, so while I still love her, I am afraid of not being able to see her future.”

“I’m not going to make any predictions about lovers.”

“As for me…” The Reverse God leaned back on the sofa and said softly, “A lover is probably the one who makes me fear a future without her.”

Spades was silent for a while, as if thinking, and then gave a serious evaluation: “It’s hard to understand.”

The Reverse God put his hands behind his head, turned his head to look at Spades, and laughed: “Indeed, for Spades, whether it is friends, relatives, or lovers, it is difficult to understand.”

“Your birth is different from that of normal humans. You don’t have any relatives with whom you have a natural blood relationship. As for friends…”

“All the players around Spades are afraid of you, let alone being your friend.” The Reverse God sighed, “Although we teammates know your background, we can’t empathize with you. The best we can do is not be afraid of you.”

“It’s hard for us ordinary humans living in [reality] to understand your thoughts, and it’s hard for you to understand our thoughts either.”

“If friends can’t understand each other, there’s no point in the relationship.”

The Reverse God glanced at Bai Yi outside the door with a blank look: “It is very disrespectful to make friends with others based on superficial sympathy, and the other party does not need it.”

Bai Yi’s fingers on the door contracted slightly, and he slowly put them down.

“Lovers…” The Reverse God sighed, “I really can’t understand this relationship. I am still troubled and can’t give you more explanation.”

Spades was silent for a while: “If I have [relatives, friends, lover], will you give me the code to enter reality?”

“I won’t give it to you.” The Reverse God looked at Spades and smiled, “But at that time, Spades, your [friends, relatives, and lovers] will give you the code.”

Spades said “oh” and nodded as if he got an answer, then stood up and left.

When Spades pushed open the door, he saw Bai Yi standing outside. Bai Yi smiled and greeted Spades. Spades nodded to indicate that he saw it, and left without saying hello.

Bai Yi was silent and walked into the lounge.

He walked in and sat on the sofa. The smile on his face quickly disappeared. He sat in silence for a while, then took out a box of cigarettes, took out a cigarette and put it in his mouth, then handed the box to the Reverse God opposite him.

“I apologize.” Bai Yi paused and said, “Reverse God, I was wrong. I didn’t think it through. I will never think of secretly giving Spades the code to reality again.”

The Reverse God lifted his eyelids, stretched out his index and middle fingers to pinch a cigarette in the box, took it out and lit it.

Then the Reverse God spoke slowly: “Don’t help someone you fear deeply just because of momentary sympathy, and naively think of becoming friends with him.”

He exhaled a puff of smoke, and the white smoke spread out on the side of his face.

The Reverse God turned around and smiled, “It’s easy to get punished, Bai Yi.”

From that time on, Bai Yi barely understood why the Reverse God did not allow anyone to encode the Spades reality.

But Bai Jiamu didn’t understand. He asked the Reverse God several times why he couldn’t give the code to Spades.

[Spades is an idiot! He won’t do anything to destroy reality! So what if we give it to him! At least let this guy sleep in a normal, warm bed for once!] Bai Jiamu yelled.

The Reverse God always laughed it off when it came to the younger Bai Jiamu, saying with a smile, “I can give it to him, but not now, and not by you.”

[Wrongtime!!] The Reverse God always said to Bai Jiamu in a funny tone.

It was not until this moment, when the Reverse God was covered in blood and Spades was lying on the ground with bruises all over his body, that Bai Yi suddenly realized.

When a monster has the power to destroy [reality], it will never be allowed to enter this copy of [reality] until it has a weakness.

Although this is unfair to the monsters.

Bai Yi took a look at Spades, who was lying face down in a pool of blood, then retracted his gaze and was pulled out of the meeting room by Bai Jiamu.

The Reverse God lay on the sofa motionless. After a while, the door of the conference room was opened again, and Liao Ke walked in carrying a cross-shaped medical box.

Liao Ke is a team member with a very low sense of presence. His appearance does not match the name of Killer Sequence at all. He is very gentle, with long and thin eyebrows, and wears a pair of plain reading glasses. There are some unintentional fine lines at the corners of his eyes, but at a glance he looks to be only 27 or 28 years old, less than 30 years old.

But in fact, the second child is already in high school.

Liao Ke looks very young and doesn’t look old at all, but he is actually 48 years old this year and his eldest son has graduated from university for more than a year.

“Oh, Liao Ke, you’re here.” The Reverse God rubbed his shoulders and chatted casually, “Is your little daughter going to be a senior in high school next year?”

“It’s not easy for you to still remember this.” Liao Ke teased, then half-knelt beside Spades, turned him over and tied him up with a restraint belt.

The Reverse God squatted down to help.

Liao Ke tied Spades’ hands and feet to the wall with restraints, then bandaged Spades’ wounds with bandages. He looked up at the Reverse God and smiled, “My daughter has a hard time studying, but she has things she wants to do, and it’s good to work hard for what she wants to do.”

The Reverse God also smiled: “It’s great that you found what you want to do at such a young age.”

Liao Ke glanced at the Reverse God and said, “You are the same, aren’t you? You entered the game at a young age just for what you wanted to do.”

The Reverse God was silent for a few seconds, then smiled as if nothing had happened: “Let’s not talk about this anymore. I asked you to come here today to give Spades psychological counseling.”

“It is indeed a harmless skill that can be used directly in the central hall.” Liao Ke half-knelt in front of Spades, who was hung up by the restraints, with a strange expression on his face. “But this is the first time I use this skill on Spades. Are you sure this guy won’t wake up and beat me up halfway through?”

The Reverse God sat cross-legged beside him: “He can’t beat you anymore, his whip was broken by me.”

Liao Ke smiled: “Then I feel relieved.”

Liao Ke’s eyes darkened. He looked directly at Spades whose head was hanging in front of him, and pulled out a stethoscope, a pen, and a notebook.

[System Alert: Player Liao Ke uses personal skills (medical consultation) and (medical record writing) on ​​player Spades].

The stethoscope stretched out in suspension, with the head placed on Spades heart, and the ear hooks floating in the air, emitting regular heartbeat sounds like an amplified speaker.

Liao Ke took out a pen and wrote on the paper: “Patient Spades, what are your main psychological symptoms? How long has this situation lasted?”

“Tell me with your heart.”

The heartbeat sound in the stethoscope became disordered, gradually changing from a regular thumping sound to the sound of poor contact and finally to Spades’ own voice.

Spades’ voice came out calmly from the ear hook: “I felt happy and sad, and it lasted for a game.”

Liao Ke nodded: “Why are you happy and why are you sad?”

“I’m happy because I met Bai Liu, and I’m sad because I met Bai Liu.” said the stethoscope.

“Do your happiness and sadness coexist all the time, or are you sometimes happy and sometimes sad?” Liao Ke asked.

The stethoscope was silent for a moment: “Sometimes I am happy, sometimes I am sad, and sometimes they coexist at the same time.”

Liao Ke wrote on the notebook, the pen tip making a rustling sound on the paper: “Can you give me some examples of your happiness, sadness, and different scenes that coexist?”

“I was happy when I slept with Bai Liu, his body was warm, I was happy when I drank with Bai Liu, I had never drunk before, I was happy when I married Bai Liu, he hugged me…” The stethoscope suddenly fell silent, “It’s hard for me to list the sad scenes.”

Liao Keshu’s pen stopped writing: “Why?”

“Because I don’t actually feel very sad, but I do feel very sad,” said the stethoscope.

Liao Ke asked: “If you don’t feel sad in a scene, but you are indeed sad, then this sadness may come from someone else. Who is this person?”

“Bai Liu.” Stethoscope answered smoothly this time, “He is very sad, but I don’t understand why.”

Liao Ke asked softly: “Under what circumstances would Bai Liu be so sad that you would also feel sad?”

“When he hugged me,” said the stethoscope, “When he dug out my heart, when he married me, when he said goodbye to me, when he performed an evil ritual to fight me…”

The stethoscope was silent for a long time: “He seems to be sad all the time.”

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